there has to be some sort of manual for the pursuit of happiness in life because i’m sick of having to figure everything out on my own. i am also really tired of having to clean up the mess after my mistakes and bad choices.
not to mention, it’s hard being this confused all the time.
windy evenings rock. the weather has been very nice lately!
i’ve become a very boring person.. and i think i’m okay with that.
it’s been said a million times before- Sunday nights suck. 
i’m damn thankful i was brought up well; because everyday i meet rude, inconsiderate idiots with heads so far up their arses, they never knew sunshine.
if there’s one thing i like about myself, it would be that i have my manners intact. i don’t think that’ll change and it makes me a cut above the rest imo. so, 
yep, poop’s the word. pooped everyday. i’m pooped.
lol..
met seige and anna for a very much anticipated sushi fix, so i’m definitely fixed for at least the whole week i think? :p then at dinner, i got this sushi voucher that shaves 10 bucks off the bill and one free drink from Starbucks LOL talk about too little too late. tis a sign!
So anyway, after sushi, it was some retail therapy. it was a toss up between a (gorgeous but reasonable) neo-leather jacket and a fossil watch. in the end, i got neither.
so now i’m regretting! haha. i realize that this entry is pointless; but, i will appreciate some advice from anybody on how to manage your urge to splurge and not regret either way.
rofl.
battle studies- john mayer
just like you- allison iraheta
recommended! 
.. and then you realize how alone you are in this, because almost everyone you know has moved on with their lives.
a reality check.
this feels pretty awesome. i’m on the sofa at mel’s place and i’m surrounded by the extended family. all thats missing is our damn happening cousin(li) and the awesome feeling will complete dinner was fabulous as usual!
i’m listening to christmas(baby please come home) by anberlin and feeling really happy today because..
1) i’m in christmas colors
and even tho it’s monday morning,
2) it’s also christmas week!
the spirit of christmas came a bit late this year, but it’s better late than never i say!
i just wish it was cold and i have all these nice wintery things to wear.
will probably try and find a nice christmas present for myself after work today
listening to: go- boys like girls
Music i really really want.
-New Moon OST
- Lovedrunk(Boys like girls)
-Alter the Ending(Dashboard confessionals)
okay, so maybe this is sort of a wishlist 
caught New Moon over the weekend, it turned out to be the sequel i was expecting. pretty damngooood. Alice Cullen,my..love. (lol) and who knew Dakota Fanning(the screaming brat from War of the Worlds) played a stellar Jane!
As much as the year has been infinitely better than ‘08, i just really want it to be over and done with. the loose ends to fall away into oblivion, some hope that a new beginning would bring some form of cure to this neverending depression of mine.
…2010, i hope i’ll meet the people i love.
